Diet Week 1 Day 1
This post will be somewhat random so I apologize to my readers in advance.
Every morning I wake up with the baby, get him fed, dressed, and ready for school. Shortly after him and Chris leave, I treat myself to an ice cold Mountain Dew, watch a few minutes of the idiot box, then get ready for the work day. Today on the other hand, I treated myself with a bottle of ice cold WATER and I have been drinking it all day long. I've been addicted to pop forever so going cold turkey is pretty traumatic for me. In anticipation of a fabulous caffeine head ache, I popped 2 Excedrin Migraine and went about my day with NO HEAD ACHE thank you God!
So today was the first real day of my diet and life style change. I really don't know that I had any expectations. I knew that it was going to be difficult to eat properly all day but I didn't realize how difficult.. derr. I work as an office assistant at the cafeteria in JBU. We have so many delicious options to eat, that sometimes it can be pretty overwhelming. Along with all of the healthy options, we also provide many of my vices like pizza, cheeseburgers, desserts, etc. I walk by the Pizza line and the Bakery line about a bajillion times a day. I'm pleased to say, that although the desserts were mighty tempting, I resisted!! I also pass the soda machines just as much and I only utilized them to fill up my water bottle. For the first time in a really long time, I didn't have a sugar crash at 3. I've been more energetic and have felt completely awesome all day! Downside.. I can feel my body going through withdrawals from not consuming crap all day. I know that this won't last long so I am currently patting myself on the back. :D
To bring the perfect ending to a fantastic day, I went to the gym... I know, I can't believe it either! I did 20 minutes on the Elliptical with the intentions of lifting weights and then finishing the other 10 after weights BUT.. I didn't. So, I go into the weight room at JBU and it's like an episode of Jersey Shore. It was filled with guys who grease their hair way too much and look like leather. I overheard them complimenting each other on various muscles. Talk about uncomfortable. I was the ONLY female in the weight room so I felt ridiculous. I 3 reps of 15 leg presses and quickly found the door. I already have a hard time going to the gym at JBU because I see many of those people every day. I just feel like the gym is for people who are already hott and are just there to maintain. No fatties allowed! I'm working on overcoming this fear, but I know that it will take me a while to truly not care what others might think when they see me.
A few things that I am struggling with:
Preparing my food. I'm used to the convenience of fast food and such.
Learning how to make good choices all day and keeping in mind that these choices spark more good choices.
Trying not to fall into the mind-set of instant gratification. Losing weight is something that I need to do so it is well worth all of the hard work that I put into it.
Loving myself. I can't quit beating myself up over insignificant things. Most of the things that I dislike about myself are things that I can change if I just put in the effort. I need to take care of ME so that I can take care of others the way I feel like they deserve!
All in all I am very proud of myself for a good 1st successful day. I know that there will be several ups and downs during this journey but with all of the support I've got, I know I can get to my desired goals! Here's to another successful day tomorrow! Now, sleeeeeeeeeeep!